Dag 41 Dinsdag 3 augustus 2004

Pijn

Published on August 2, 2004 By Heartache In Marital Issues

Ik zit hier met pijn te tikken. Gisteren bijna een fles wijn gedronken. Dat helpt geen moer. "Met Miek "geweest". Was alleen niet spontaan. Ik kan niet slapen en voel me verschrikkelijk.
Dat sex en tv zit me zo afschuwelijk dwars. Ik weet niet waarom.. Frustatie ten top. Dit is een echte low. Het is nu verdomme al 03:55 in de nacht.
Eigenlijk een goede dag vandaag ondanks weinig slaap. Veel spanning in het middenrif. Vanmiddag heb ik druppels gehaald die werken tegen die spanning. Dat verlicht het gevoel tenminste.

Vandaag ook best veel gehuild. Het verliezen van Annemiek grijpt me verschrikkelijk aan.

Op tijd naar bed. Wel meer druppels ingenomen."

Comments

Death_By_Beebles

on Aug 02, 2004

habla ingles?

I have a question for you, if you don't mind. Why do you write your blogs in german? or whatever the language is.

Not trying to be rude, just kind of curious.

Peace,
Beebes

Heartache

on Aug 10, 2004

It's Dutch and its supposed to be for me only. On an English site almost nobody can read this. That's the whole point you see. This is my diary about my wife wanting to leave me...

dharmagrl

on Aug 10, 2004

It's Dutch

I was right!!! I knew it wasn't German!!!

Dude, I'm sorry that your wife wants to leave you....

Is English your second language? And can we get a translated version? I can understand some German, my French is halfway decent, but Dutch...I'm stumped.

Heartache

on Aug 11, 2004

Hi,

Thanks for your support.
Yes indeed, English is my second language, German my third and I too speak (some) French. I almost only read English books and that's helped my English improve over the years.
Would you or anyone be interested in an English version? The content isn’t very happy. I write down my feelings and frustrations. And some days it’s much and someday it isn't… If anyone is it may be a challenge to me to produce a Dutch AND English version. Could take my mind off of things....

dharmagrl

on Aug 11, 2004

Would you or anyone be interested in an English version? The content isn’t very happy. I write down my feelings and frustrations. And some days it’s much and someday it isn't… If anyone is it may be a challenge to me to produce a Dutch AND English version. Could take my mind off of things....

I'd be VERY interested in an English version.

it might be beneficial for you too...we have a very supportive bunch of folks blogging here at JU. I've found it incredibly helpful to be able to pour my heart out and have someone say "i know how you feel".

So, when can we expect the first installment?

Heartache

on Aug 11, 2004

Well, its 2:15 Thursday august 12 at night at my side of the world. So after I’ve slept a few hours I’ll try to first write a kind of summary for the past 50 days since my wife told me she wants to leave, after 18 years!
I'm 42 years old and have two kids (boy 8 and girl 11)......
You'll see the first English entry tomorrow. Since it’s a diary I’ll try to make the English version more booklike? Or just like I write it in Dutch? I’ve only been blogging for 50 days you know…

dharmagrl

on Aug 11, 2004

Since it’s a diary I’ll try to make the English version more booklike?

Write any way you want to. Whatever is easiest for you. You'll do fine (you've been doing fine!)...and I will look for that installment tomorrow!

Go get some sleep! By the way, I have an 11 year old girl and an 8 year old boy as well. I also have a 9 year old boy.

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